August 12

Dear diary,

Wow have i had the best few days ever lolz Well ok one thursday i went to a place called micky finns its a bar for teens its really kool it was free wing night i like them lol i went with all my friends and rick (brother) friends so yea it was really funny my brother friend thats like 17 he has a crush on me lol but yea no i am not intrestd right now lol. But yea it was real fun we went to taco bell after that and we ate like a 79cent burito lol. And i saw more of my friends there dani and a whole bunch more then i met this kid named abby he is a cutie lol but yea it was real funny they were all smokin well some not my friend just the people i didnt know but i dont get involved in that stuff so i just ate my burito i was talking to dani and abby we were talking bout the past and how bad i did in school lol. then when it was time for them to go i said by to dani and the cutie and tht was it. Then we went back to micky finns and chilled in front of the thetre my bros friend and his girl was having sex behind the stairs i was laughing. But yea then me and my bro walked home from there at 11o clock at night lol it was scary especially the neighborhood i stay at lol. Then friday i went to the movie to see G I GO it was alsome i loved it real good. After the movie i bumped into abby again and we started talkin and that was it then i chilled with my friends and rick. Then abby asked me if i wanted to chill sometime so i said sure so i wont be mean. Then the weekend was boring then yesterday i was at brees house working and abby came over so i was chilling with him(dont wrry didnt do nothnig like i said not interested) and i got more important thing to deal with than some boy anywho but yea it was fun now today i am going to meditate just to get some alone time i need it i have alote on my mind more than i should i feel like my heads going to explode. : ) but yea life is getting hard but like they say life needs to get hard before it gets easy. So i guess i let it be. Omg i had the weirdest dream yesterday ok it was the end of the world and me and my family was all together and we was all hugging and my brother rick was on the phone with his gf and i was waiting and i knew it was coming but the funny part it was like a normal day but i knew it was the end of the world so as we wait i was holding on to my mom and i hurd a loud roaring sound like if something was going t happend so we hold on tighter and i was scared than that was it life as we knew it was over but i didnt know if i was in heaven or hell but it was good and like i was happy i think but i think it was heaven like i was in a field of beautiful flowers and idk but that dream got me thinking it was real crazy i would tell you my other dream but its rater R lol jk but yea well then i got a feeling that tonight gonna be good night lol i love that song by the black eyes peas lol its funny how some people are ment to be together but like you cant see it and the people that are not you can see it its funny but i know what i have to do now and i am going to do it im going to stick with one thing and one thing only and that making my ife a better place for me to live in and i know i do bad things and i kno i do what i am not suppose to but its for a reason eveerything has a reason and i know mine. Now its time for me to think and if some sense pops i n my head i will tell you : ) I am going to go to meditate now and read and listen to my music and relax by myself i like it when i am by myself better way to think well then time for me to go again lol bye : )

Love always

Jazmn

Quote: Life needs to be hard before it gets any easier